Sotongemo's 0°C

this probably will be a very emo post.

half of my uni life gone like that with nothing in my hand.
the more i study , the more i wish to go back to the past.
i totally has no idea what my life is going to be.
and most of the time i just feels like i am waiting the day to come.

i thought i can get my own goal back after i enter uni.
maybe some of you might not know my stpm result hit my life and my dream.
and i found that, the impact is still here.
and now i still cannot stand up to fight back to gain back what i am losing.

i don noe what shud i said, but this few day really give me a huge change on my view.
i thought test shud not be only result orientated .
but someone told me that the purpose of test is for you so score , if you not scoring A or if you score lower than yours friends, then it would be the last days of yours world.
i am shocked , it is out of my expectation for answer like tat.
i thought test is testing how much u learned and how much u understanding...

i really hope someone could send me out of this cursed adult world.
the ugly reality world.
downed.......