Sotongemo's 0°C

this will be a very emo post, and this is not for the people that i know before i enter this hell, in another hand, you are safe . those fall in this group, don read it , i will scolding you below. don ask me anythings about wat incident i mention to, i feel sick to talk about it.

i feel wanna escape from this hell, the good things is only a month to go when i go back. the bad things is i still need to stay at this fucking place for another 1 and half year.

i feel disappointed when i heard that
" why yuloon do like this, he is not like the person will do this "
frankly, this hurt me a lot. look like every things i do before just a shit compare to this incident, i thought ppl will say he is not the person instead of he does not look like that kind of person.
of cos, i just a substituted element as one of my friend said. or i just nothing at all.
or i just a jerk that have some motif with you guys ?

i feel wanna vomit when i look at myself now.
i just a fake person, i put myself too tiny to full fill every things that you ppl might want, am i that kind of selfish ?whatever and i don care any more.
really tired and still need to stay at here for 1 and half year.

shut up. if you think you are the person i mentioned, if you think you are not, then shut up also.
don forced me pointed at you and told you it is the time for you to shut up.
and watever you want to talk behind me, just go ahead.
no friend no friend la, why shud i bother so much for a ppl like you when you just see me as a jerk ?

ps: assignment and test make me crazy plus a idiot association that syok sendiri always ask me to do idiot things. i hope all that things can fuck off from my sight.